- (via broken-hearts-lonely-souls)
"I am waiting for the day that I can look at you and feel nothing
The day when me head is completely clear
When I can look at the things that rind me of you and stop saying fuck you
This was never suppose to happen
I was not suppose to get attached
But you have always had this charm
You make every girl want more
I told myself that I was different
I am not those girls
This was only for fun
But see my mind is all fucked up
I know the silly games you love to play
But why would you keep coming back to me?
Questions in my head keep replaying
Do you have any feelings for me or any at all?
Am I anything special in your eyes or simply a carnival game that you will move on from if you don’t “win a prize”
I get butterflies when we merely hold hands
Let alone when we kiss
See I have these emotions all bottled up hoping that maybe at one point you will tell me what I want to hear
But I know that it’s a million in one chance
How great it is to be an optimistic pessimist
My constant battle with my mind is because of you”"